Monday, February 13, 2012

Week 7 - Defeated

Week 7 Defeated
I feel defeated by myself … I let myself down…  I struggle to control cravings and give in.  But I have taken the necessary steps to still and calm the mind and hopefully get some sleep. But one side effect is weight gain.  2 kgs has appeared within a week so say that I am freaking out is an understatement.  
So I will continue Sunday walking, boxing, strength training and cardio. I can’t and won’t let this beat me.  I will go postal if it does.  I truly believe that weight loss will be the key to me getting back on track but this has seriously knocked the wind out of my sails. But now I know how it is happening I will be more aware.  

Try to not let my cravings  along with the hormonal imbalance beat me and take over my life.  Can’t keep on doing it to myself and even job hunting I feel that I let myself down. I am using every excuse not to look because it means putting fat self out there and I am probably too delicate for that. But I need to battle onwards and overcome this …  not let it defeat me 

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