Week 7 Defeated
I feel defeated by myself … I let myself down… I struggle to control cravings and give
in. But I have taken the necessary steps
to still and calm the mind and hopefully get some sleep. But one side effect is
weight gain. 2 kgs has appeared within a
week so say that I am freaking out is an understatement.
So I will continue Sunday walking, boxing,
strength training and cardio. I can’t and won’t let this beat me. I will go postal if it does. I truly believe that weight loss will be the
key to me getting back on track but this has seriously knocked the wind out of
my sails. But now I know how it is happening I will be more aware.
Try to not let my cravings along with the hormonal imbalance
beat me and take over my life. Can’t keep
on doing it to myself and even job hunting I feel that I let myself down. I am
using every excuse not to look because it means putting fat self out there and
I am probably too delicate for that. But I need to battle onwards and overcome
this … not let it defeat me
